||- Miss Seline Yan -||

许慧欣 失眠

拥着温暖的棉被    想着冰冷的甜美
用尽力气快点睡    反而累得不能睡
枕头保留你气味    眼眶失去你点缀
只愿工作的汗水    能够冲淡我眼泪

时间万岁~我总会无力伤悲
梦幻一场不是为了午夜梦回

时间万岁~证明和你不配
感情受伤不该连累眼圈发黑

不断轮回的玫瑰     憔悴过后是妩媚
想念带来了约会 失眠逼出了体会

如果真不能睡该清醒着面对
沉醉在美化的过去   是种罪
还得为明天预备      还没有条件崩溃
失眠就换上新的香水

时间万岁~我总会无力伤悲
梦幻一场不是为了午夜梦回
时间万岁~证明和你不配
眼泪无知欲睡又醒陈旧玫瑰

享受被爱的疯狂
嘘寒问暖稀松平常
你喝水你吃饭
你拥有的早已习惯

我在被爱的天堂
以为幸福不敢想
被哄着入睡吻着起床
换一个人是否一样

惯性背叛还天真的希望我应该体谅
像孩子找着新玩伴很快乐受了伤
明明回头却不敢让我看到你的慌
惯性背叛才发现你是如此害怕黑暗
原来什么都被锁上
我慢慢觉得亮越接近夕阳影子越长

你在被爱的门窗
总是盼望总是展望
人挤人的街上
再多解释伤心失望
你在被爱的围墙
那个温暖的手掌
以为的捆绑这是力量
被你冷战陪你张狂

·°·°∴°.·°∴°.°°∴°·°·°∴°.·°∴°.°°∴°·°·°∴°.·°∴°.°°∴°
很多时候
我因为怕受伤
所以就选择先放弃
因我太爱自由
所以明明渴望爱情
却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界.
你知道我一直有多在乎你.

我珍惜这份安全感
却又担心他的牺牲
所以每天的感觉还是孤独的
我还是需要一个人想一想.

难道我真的是个笨蛋
一直错过已经在身边的幸福
我们要用时间找到我们需要什么
时间让我们认识了自己
也肯定了对方
因为你
让我知道真正的幸福是什么
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第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

i 4get to blogged about my lost hp.. i muz complain…
on the 1st April 2008, i lost my hp at bugis street once again(2nd time).. before this lost, i did encountered that a pick-pocket too, that was during the 2007 Chinese new year period.. oh gosh~ and one more time now.. so unlucky rite? luckily, carol stayed with me throughout the evening.. i immediately called to terminate my SIM card..
i did remembered that i did kept my hp in my bag, but when i checked inside out, the hp was gone and carol tried calling but the phone was switched off… carol accompanied mi to PS to collect the new SIM card and i bought a phone. dis is the very very first time i ever had received the best customers’ service from starhub.. haha~
on the following day, i went to a nearby police station that is somewhere near my workplace to make a police report. i dun think it is nice to mention the venue of the police station here..

i went into the police station,
POLICE: wat r u here for, miss?
MI: i’ve lost my hp at bugis.
POLICE: we wont be going to the place to find ur hp, u wanna make a report for?
MI: i wanna report for my lost hp….
POLICE: it is impossible to get ur hp, even if i lost my phone, i will not bother to make the report and it is useless… waste of time oso..
MI: dis is the second time i lost my hp at bugis street and i wanna make a report and hope that there is more secure over there everytime..
POLICE: even we file a report, we wont waste our time to go down to the place to find ur hp for u… u need the report for the phone service center?
MI: NO, i dun think i could find my hp now, but i would appreciate if u could make my report now…
the policeman finally "entertained" mi by making my report unwillingly.

so mad about the case where the policeman still wanna chit chat with mi
after my report were done. he asked what is the model of hp i am carrying now, how much i bought it and showed off his hp.. i looked at the watch and said, i need to go
off to work… and he asked where do i worked and what time do i start and end.. wat the……………
so irritating eh~

at that point of time, i really suspected what are the Singapore police officer doing? cant find the refugee and not even simple tasks. loves going to the stadium to march, say pledge and sing song every yearly..

i was hoping that they could help, cos that was the 1st phone i bought for myself when i lost my hp at the 1st time in bugis.. and this time, i really felt that there is no way i could ever see my phone again.. the contents like pictures, videos, messages, contacts(the most important ones) and some of the birthday reminder were gone.. feeling so down..

nevertheless whoever is the owner of the phone now, i really hope that u can treasure it well, and love it much.. i even went to jurong to service my hp… and it is now in very very good condition… though it was juz a non-living object, but that was the very 1st phone i bought for myself….

yeah yeah..
since quite some time didn’t update anything about my life… it is not that nothing special happened, too busy with perlims, work, families and oso studies and etc etc…

but anyway, feng, serene, jacqueline, sanjana, carol and mi celebrated yahui’s birthday in advance.. woah~ that was so tiring, it was definitely a perfect effort we all did put in… hope the birthday gal really enjoy and oso, all my dearest girls… yahui was sick, so do feng and serene… kept coughing like a non-stop hits music.. haha~

serene, feng, carol, sanjana waited for mi at amk mrt earlier at 1130am, as usual, i am always late, took the train to city hall. did some make-up for serene and feng in the ladies, and walked to the suntec to meet jac and yahui.. it was so tiring with heels and we were all in dress.. but not jac, she was being excused la.. haha..

we had our porridge in the conventional hall, den jac’s daddy(thanks uncle!) came and fetched us to the mind’s cafe which is located at the bugis, we got off the car 1st while jac secretly went to buy a cake for yahui. we tried out alot of games over there, that was too fun.. our laughters filled the entire cafe when carol was wanting to kissed san.. haha.. oh gosh~ though the cafe was alittle small, but i was sured that everyone did enjoyed at the time being(i hope)… anyway, it was just a game, NO hard feeling alright, CAROL….we sang the birthday song both in english and mandrian(san is not singing this, of cos!!!) and shared the cake.. haha…

afterwards, we walked to bugis to have our dinner and that was the time san have to leave for home.. we headed to clark quay to have a little chilled out and that is the end of the day…

everyone was sobbing and grumbling about the heels and the real hot weather.. we took lots and lots of pictures and cheers for each other to receive good grades for the upcoming exams for, oso for yahui.. had so much fun and the time really flies when u are enjoying urself with the others..
jia you my sweet ladies~

云在走  雨在飘
好多悲伤在风中笑

心在烧  泪在掉
你的背叛没有人知道

说爱我好不好
就当作是乞讨
哪怕说出口只需要一秒
你都不要

我的痛像把刀
血在流看得到
你却在她怀抱微笑

如果连自尊都已经不再需要
这个世界什么爱你买不到
天真全部可以倒掉
海誓山盟变成一种玩笑

如果连誓言都已经不再重要
还有什么事值得你去骄傲
所有承诺随风燃烧
给你的爱已经停止心跳
你可知道

给你的爱无路可逃
眼泪知道

Happy new year everyone…
Gong xi fa cai..
Xin xiang shi cheng…

Wah~ i’m very suay la… this is the year of rat.. and i born in the year of it.. on the lunar day itself, i suffered alot.. got a bad bad sprang on my left spine area which actually lead me to the difficulty walking, sitting, sleeping, doing household chores.. the terrible part was sitting down and not able to get up, walking with my legs trembling, getting so pissed with it lo.. cried badly man.. cannot help my mum and dad with the remaining house cleaning..

it happened when my parents were out visiting my grandma who is in the old folks’ home, and i was supposed to clean the chair, sweep the floor and mop them.. with my brother at home, he packed the table, kitchen and the room.. the careless me, pushing away the sofa with the wrong directions, my back was pain till i almost fell.. lucky i didn’t and shout out to my brother, the busy him have to clear the rest that i did not manage to finish.. bathing was the most killing part… argh.. wat a bad start of the year.. unable to help, my parents still have to take care of me, ensure about my steps, and apply the medicine for me.. argh.. it was so sucky…

going to grandma’s place soon.. hope no one laugh at this old woman, ying, for walking so slowly.. >.<

有人说
天刚要黑的时候
在天边出现的第一颗星星
它叫 黄昏晓

风吹呀吹 吹呀吹
吹在黄昏的空中
我飘呀飘 飘啊飘
飘不进你的心中
问一问风怎么说
也不能解释所有的痛
到不如问一问我
要怎么去过

风吹呀吹 吹呀吹
吹在微凉的梦中
我追阿追 追阿追
却停在原地不动
风为什么还不走
陪着我安静等你划过
我不再问为什么
因为我懂了

拥抱的温度
只有你清楚
通往幸福的旅途
黄昏才领悟
该往哪里停驻
我用一辈子 去追逐

风吹呀吹
吹呀吹
风吹呀吹
吹呀吹

i had a very very very ENJOYABLE, wonderful weekend, i stay out overnight.. not suppose to do that cos i have to give up $100++ for not working on the weekends, but that can’t buy me my happiness yeah.. i spent lots of money.. whole damage to my 2 weeks pay, are more than $100 liao le.. terrible… but i have enjoyed sooooo sooooo sooooo much..

so happy, went to stroll at park, had some drinking, shopping and eating and and and and also the expensive transportation fee.. haha… lucky dis few days never rain, can enjoy the pleasure of sweating in the sun, though smelly.. haha…

sometimes, living to no regrets in life can be so great though certain things done are not so right to do so, eventually we don’t know when will be our last day.. lets say tomorrow is my last day, i will still live to the fullness and enjoy every second of the time that are left for me, if i still have the ability to hold myself and walk around freely at times..